Louis B Jackson Jr. - Online Memorial Website

Louis, as Christmas Day approaches, I sit here and smile with tears in my eyes as I remember our first Christmas together.  We both said we were not going to spend a whole lot of money on each other, however that was not true.  We woke up Christmas morning and ran to our Christmas tree like two little kids.  We ripped open our stuff and were just hugging each other and saying thank you.  It wasn't that we spent a lot, it was the little things that we got each other.  From me, the chess set you said you always wanted, from you a tennis bracelet that I just said I liked.  We knew each other so well and we were never ashamed to express or show our love for each other publicly or privately.  As I am getting ready to play Santa to our sons, I must say to you, I miss my big, sexy Santa very much!  You were simply the best at loving me and our two sons.  Simply the best at being you and bringing light into a world of dark.  Merry Christmas my love, I can only imagine how beautiful Christmas in Heaven is.

November 10, 2001 was one of the greatest days of my life.  Becoming your wife took my life to another level  I never thought or knew that love like that existed.  Today, I celebrate being your wife.  Today, I celebrate the man you were.  Today, I celebrate the husband you were.  Today I celebrate a love that transcends Heaven to Earth.  I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes.  I miss you more than I can express or even begin to explain.  Just know that though you are no longer on earth with me, my love for you has never ceased.  From me to you Louis Happy 7th Anniversary. 

One year ago today, I walked into your hospital room.  You were smiling and had such a beautiful glow, unlike anything I have ever seen.  You had such a peace about you.  I yelled Louis get up, but didn't.  I begged baby please, but you were gone, gone to glory to be with God.  I hold near and dear to my heart that the first person who greeted you at the gates, was your Daddy, Big Louis.  I picture your Grandmother Peaches, hugging you.  I see my Grandfather Mutt talking to you and my Uncle Snotts joking with you about naming our youngest son after him and his Dad (Grandfather Mutt).  I picture you making deliveries in your beautiful purple tractor.  I picture you walking the streets of gold, laughing and talking.  When the sun is shining, I know it's you smiling brightly. I feel your whispers of love from above.  The boys are growing so fast.  I picture your chest filling the heavens above, beeming with pride and full of glory watching your name-sake grow so fine.  You may be gone from earth, but my love still runs deep for you.  You may be watching from above, but we feel you around us too.  Heaven is a better place with your presence.  Rest in peace my love.  Rest in peace...

Or will everyday be my today of pain and sorrow

Why/How I have made it through the first 6 months of life after Louis

I think the first reason I have been able to go on is my faith and love for God. I know that has made all the difference in the world for me. There have been times that I have gotten on my knees and cried out to God for help and understanding and something happens. I am able to get up and go on with the things I need to do at that moment. God gives me strength as his child. Don't get me wrong, I have gotten angry with God and yelled and screamed at him for taking Louis from the boys and I. But as my Creator, He knew how I was going to act and feel before I did. Though God needed Louis in His kingdom and I miss him to know end, my belief and love for Him gives me strength to know He has not forsaken me.

The love of a wonderful man. Louis shows me sign often. Only I would know the things that he has shown me because they are things that were private jokes between he and I and no one else. It is those signs that give me strength to know that though he is not here physically, like he promised on our wedding day, he is still with me.

The love for and of my children. Those are two of the most awesome "little people" I have ever seen. They pick me up. When they see I need a hug, I get one, when they see I am crying, they even give me tissue and tell me it's going to be okay or they will even just let me cry and continue to play and scream and just be boys, but watching them be so innocent and full of life, gives me strength to know that I can live too.

And lastly and certainly not least is the love and support of good friends and family. The support form YWBB has been such a great "grief tool" for me. Though none of us ever wanted to meet under there circumstances, we are all here, holding hands and walking through this widowhood journey as no one else will never be able to begin to understand. I have made some wonderful friends here. I cannot forget those friends that I have made since Louis died and who have been a constant in my life since. People who did not know me, but just loved me – that is just awesome to me. It lets me know there are still good people in this evil world we live in. These friends are still calling and visiting and spending the night sometimes. I also cannot forget friends that knew both Louis and I and have remained my friend and provided love and support to me, words just are not enough. My family especially my Aunt “T” who is more like my big sister, I can't say enough about her. She still calls or emails me everyday. She still knows that I am crying and lonely and doesn't get upset if I cry or yell or curse on the phone with her, she just listens and even cries, yells or curses too. It is the love from all that gives me the strength that I am a person who matters in this world and I am still loved.

These are the “things” that have helped me make it through the past 6 months of misery. I only imagine what the next 6 months will be like as new adventures arise. I just hope and pray that the same things that helped me thus far will continue to help on.

As Christmas Day approaches, and everyone is out shopping in the hustle and bustle, I would like to create memories from others who knew and loved Louis. Something that I can put in a book and on Louis' website so that my sons and I can look back and read, laugh and cry about memories and moments my wonderful husband and their wonderful father.I ask each of you, if you have time to please take a moment to respond to this email. I made a list of a few things I would love you to share with us and please feel free to add whatever you want to share. The
more the Merrier. Thank you so much....
 
1. How did you know Louis and for how long?
2. What did that "Smiling Man" mean/represent to you?
3. What is the fondest memory you have of Louis?
4. Are there any quotes or sayings Louis was famous for saying to you?
5. What did you love about Louis?
6. In one word, describe Louis?
7. If you could have one more conversation with Louis, what would youtell him?

From Aunt Dena

 1.         I had the pleasure of meeting Louis, for the 1^st time, as my goddaughter’s husband.  Not as long as I would have like, about 5 years.

2.         He was a good person, a very good husband.

3.         The happiness in his face and his love for my goddaughter and their sons

4.         I can’t remember.  Having a senior moment. SMILE

5.         His smile and laugher.

6.         A very happy person.  Never negative.

7.         I don’t know.  It alls depends on what topic him and I got on at that moment and before we finished we both be laughing so hard. 

 

From Tawana Scott-McKay

I met Louis through my husband James they were old buddies since age 17/18.
Louis smile to me meant a man full of peace.
My fondest memory is his joy and laughter at my son Lawewrence baby shower.
Louis made you feel like he'd known you for years.
My one word to describe him is happy.
I wish my husband smiled more! ha,ha

From Tondria Reid

1. I knew Louis over seven years.
2. That smile represents a proud happy man who loved his family.
3. The fondest memory I have of Louis is partying to Chuck Brown in
Baltimore and all of us playing and laughing in the
pool at the kids’ birthday party and laughing about Bunny's black mart
tapes and watching them play pool.
4. What I loved about Louis is that he was his self he never fronted and
he loved the hell out of my niece.
5. One word to describe Louis would be FEARLESS.
6. I would think him for being apart of our family and for sharing his
two handsome sons.

From Mrs. K--

Laneka --

 

Though I did not know Louis personally I felt I knew him just from how you talked about him and the way your face lit up when you mentioned him.  The one thing that does stand out in my mind is during the preparation for Natalie's wedding you had come to Dale City with us to shop for bridesmaids dresses and when Natalie asked you how was Louis doing without you for the day - you were glowing when you said, "he's fine - I left him xx chicken legs so he has plenty to eat".

When I saw his picture, his smile was a signature smile.  Such joy in his eyes and peace about him.

Enjoy your Holidays,
Mrs. K.

From Delphine Williams

How I remembered Louis Jackson, Sr. on this Christmas Day

by Delphine (Smith) Williams

December 2007

 

“Louis - God’s Prefect Plan of a Man”

 

Humble, a man of God

Loyal, to his wife

Patient, to his two little sons

Friend, to the world

Kind, to everyone

Great, to smile under pressure

Wonderful, to a friend in need

Giver, to a stranger

Strong, when sometimes so weak

Blessed, to walk this earth

 

 

Laneka, Louis and Lawrence

Always remember "As you are kind to others, may they be especially kind to you"

My life will never be the same

The day you left, my how my world changed

Ours sons wonder why

Daddy had to leave and make Mommy cry

God is the answer because He controls

Those who stay on earth and those He calls home

No matter where you are, how near, how far

My love never changes, you are my star

So rest in peace Louis

Don't worry or fear

I am here to make true all dreams you held near

Love you, miss you live each day for you my dear

 

Love always, Your wife

Dear Louis,

 

 Today, six years ago, I promised to love, cherish and respect you until death do us part.  I never thought that death would do us part so soon after our lives were just beginning.  The birth of our two sons, the careers we both always wanted.  Though you are not in the flesh anymore, I feel your presence around the boys and I and that let’s me know that like you promised me, on November 10, 2001, you will always be by my side and nothing, not even death could keep us apart.  So today, I will celebrate the commitment we made to each other.  Today, I will celebrate the husband you were to me.  Today, I will celebrate the love we shared.  Today, I will celebrate being Mrs. Louis Jackson.  Today, I will celebrate the bond of marriage that will never be broken.  Like we always said, there is nothing that would ever keep our love down, not even death could take that away from us.  I love you and I miss you!  Happy Anniversary Big Daddy!  From your Little Mama!

Laneka,

To God Be The Glory

 

You know your husband Louis was always full of life.  I know he always made you smile and you are forever his queen and he will forever be your king.  Louis smile will forever shine!  Your precious sons, Louis left his signature smile.  It is natural to mourn.  Don't let anyone dictate to you what you need to do.  Many of us have not walked in your shoes.  Let God show you the way.  Keep God closer and others at bay.  You're going to have good days and not so good days and that is OK.  Take your days one at a time holding onto God who will guide your way.    God Bless You!

 

 

Love You My Sister